S.A.H.M.

Who knew I'd be THIS busy now that I'm "not working"? It is 1:32 pm and I've just sat down for the first time today. I'm pooped! I've made a school lunch for Gabrielle, dressed three kids, driven one to school, picked up a friend for a playdate, dropped Greg's lunch off to him at work, cleaned the kitchen (12 times it seems), unloaded and loaded the dishwasher, made lunch, put in and folded some laundry, made banana bread, gotten snacks and lunch for 3 kids, cleaned up again and here I am...finally! I'm thinking it is far easier to go to work!

Am I crazy? To be not working? When I did that, I did the school lunch and school drop off, then I drove the youngest two up to the day home. I came home, made a cup of tea and SAT DOWN. It was easy. It was quiet. I got paid for it.

But for some reason, the desire to be at home was strong and could not be denied. After much prayer, it seems the answer was clear. Be at home with your kids right now. Now, that might change at some point. I might want to find work in a month, or two or six or by next year. But right now I'm loving it. I love spending my days at home with my kids. They are so little and when I see Maxwell, toddling around in nothing by his diaper, I am struck by the fact that he is my LAST baby. My last little person at that age to live in this house. And I want to enjoy these moments with them and soak up every last detail of their "little person-ness"...



*EDITED* After posting this, Lily spilled her entire glass of milk on the carpet. I did not respond very well. So although I want to be at home right now, I will not and do no always excel at this job!